Contemplation
On Pricks, Assholes and Basics of Dharma
I
wonder if Sogyal Rinpoche, when forcing his young female follower to
give him a blow job, felt that he was really nailing it and
magnificiently fulfilling his task as a guru, or if he felt that he
was making a really bad mistake, both as a guru and as a human being.
Or when he punched the nun in the gut, or when he had childish fits
over, for example, of not getting the type of ice cream he wanted. I
wonder if he ever took a moment to contemplate if the punches and
hittings with whatever the stick it was he liked hitting people with,
were OK or not. I wonder if he has realised since what a cunt he has
been, that is, on top of copycating the lamas who visited and taught
in his place. I wonder if he feels he accomplished his work
honourably or if he is able to authentically admit that he failed in
a horrible way, damaging the lives of not only those he so badly
abused but also those followers in his organisation who trusted him,
who trusted the lamas of his lineage, who trusted vajrayana as a path
and who trusted buddhist dharma. Does he realise he crushed the
hearts of all these people by demanding his dick get sucked by his
female assistants? And I wonder if he realises that for him there is
no other option than to end up in awful hellish realms to assume a
position such as a sex slave, getting forcibly taken over and over
and over again. I wonder if he ever contemplated the meaning of
karma, that the numerous generations of yogis had taught. Apparently
not but then him being a lineage holder and all, what made him so
convinced that he got anything perfectly right. This is something
I've always thought in the many cases of all the bad apples out
there.
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| Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche |
Similarly
Trungpa Rinpoche, when hitting a line of coke, already on the verge
of passing out due to being so drunk, after telling his security
guards to bring the young couple back from their room, ordering them
to strip naked, I wonder if it crossed his mind that he had become a
deluded addict, a power corrupted asshole, and simply a total fuck up
or if he felt he was really helping people to realise the empty
nature of mind to put an end to samsara? Or when he tortured the cat
to death with a blow torch? Did it ever cross his mind that perhaps
he shouldn't hurt the cat or command people to strip naked in front
of him or anyone else? Or that maybe it wasn't such a good idea to
drink so much votka while lecturing of dharma, as he often passed out
during and right after the talk, while basically talking nonsensical
bullshit for one lecture after the other? Perhaps it was his charisma
and wildness that made people so enthusiastic around him that
reflected back to him. Perhaps him seeing the reaction of people,
made him think he was brilliantly achieving the position of a holder
of wisdom. Trungpa himself said that all of buddhism rests on
hinayana but it looks like he didn't spend a moment contemplating how
the basics of buddhism translate to actions because a large part of
his actions were spoilt.
I
am sorry of the many harsh words in this post but I saw no point in
being artificial and decorating all the bad things these men and
others like them, did.
Love
and clarity is the true nature of all living beings, though covered
with thick dirt as black and sticky as tar. Somehow, in countless
ways and lifes, we find and loose, and again find and loose the way
to reality. Along the way, we come up with ideas and interpretations
that either take us closer to the reality or farther away from it,
like these two pricks did.
For
this reason, those on the path, should never ever loose the sight of
ethics, should always exercise common sense and should ever hold on
to the feet of a mahasiddha guru. Otherwise, there is no end to
reincarnation.
May
All Beings Be Free,
Kim
Katami,
Open
Heart Sangha,
