Shane's
Awakening
See Shane's before and after photos below.
"Before
I discovered the Two-Part Formula I hadn’t much experience in
meditation, in fact, for reasons that I am not entirely sure of, I
hadn’t meditated for nearly 10 years.
My
brother introduced me to meditation about 12 years ago and the first
method I learned was a breathing awareness meditation. This seemed to
have a very positive effect on me so I made a commitment to practice
everyday, even though the idea of awakening or enlightenment was
completely unknown to me at this stage. Around this time I also took
part in a small number of retreats that were focused mainly on the
practice of pure awareness. I stuck with this meditation for a while
but found it
hard
to stay committed. My daily practice became less and less frequent
until
eventually
I stopped.
During
the 10 years of not meditating I had considered returning to a daily
practice but could never find the inspiration that I needed. One day
my
brother
mentioned to me that he had discovered a new meditation technique
that was awakening nearly everybody who tried it. As you can imagine
I found this quite hard to believe but simply hearing about it was
enough to reignite a spark in me. I didn’t go to the 2PF straight
away, there was definitely something in me that was resisting it. It
took a few months before I eventually decided to give it a go.
The
2PF felt strange at first and was quite unlike any meditation
technique I had tried before. I certainly wasn’t one of those
individuals who awakens
after
one or two days. In fact, it took several weeks to break through the
illusion. The 2PF never felt like it was having a very strong effect
on me. I found it difficult to trigger any strong sensations of self,
but I was committed and eventually it worked.
My
awakening happened early on a Saturday morning, but since the
afternoon of the previous day I had felt like a shift had occurred. I
went out that evening to meet friends and go to a concert and
throughout this whole time I felt unusually peaceful. So content and
relaxed, yet energised. Socialising was much easier than usual. I
often had difficulty relaxing in large groups and would usually
resort to excessive drinking as a way of dealing with the tension.
While cycling home I decided to try out the affirmation. Saying the
words out loud and in my head, I couldn’t help but notice how the
words had lost some of the meaning that they previously had. Almost
to the point where they felt like they weren’t bouncing off
anything, like they weren’t triggering anything in me. I went to
bed when I got home and as I lay there, already after 4 am at this
point, I couldn’t stop thinking to myself that something was
missing. This couldn’t be awakening. My experience lacked heart,
lacked warmth and love.
While
lying there I became increasingly aware of a glow between my eyes. I
had felt something like this before during meditation, but it had
previously felt more like tension, like a clenched fist, or a rock,
or a knot in my forehead. Now it felt like it was coming to life ,
growing warmer, and pulsing with energy. I decided to focus my entire
being on it and as I did so it started to expand. The more it
expanded the warmer and freer I felt. Suddenly I realised something
that I had known before, but there was a sudden shock realisation of
what it truly meant. For the first time in my life I realised I can
be me now, really me. I said this to myself out loud. “Oh my God, I
can be me now”. Nothing to be scared of anymore, nothing to chase,
no-one to be, except me.
These
words had such profound meaning to me that I needed to repeat them
several times, completely shocked by the realisation. Suddenly I
started crying
and
the warm glow that was expanding across my forehead suddenly
exploded, releasing a massive wave of energy across my entire body.
The feeling was so indescribably intense that I broke down in
completely uncontrollable tears.
My
body was shaking. It felt like a huge amount of dark energy was
bursting out of my body through this point in my forehead. I’m not
sure how long the tears lasted but as they calmed down they were
replaced by laughter and a feeling of lightness and energy like
nothing I’d felt before. Even though it was 5 am I felt like
getting dressed and running down the road telling everybody I met
what had happened to me and how much I loved them! Crazy! I did go
for a walk but you can imagine what the few people around would be
like at that time on a Saturday morning, so I kept it to myself.
My
awakening was such an intense experience that it took several days to
recover from. The whole experience had rattled me so much that I
could do
very
little for those few days. But as my life gradually returned to
normality reality started to sink in. The sights, the sounds, I no
longer feel separated from them as I did before. I feel so connected
with everything and everyone around me. Such a strange but beautiful
feeling. My self could never have experienced life in this way."
Before
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