Birgit's Awakening

 

Birgit's Awakening

I am sharing here a bit and photographs from Birgit's guidance to awakening that she did with Ugi.

-Kim

Birgit from Germany awakened!

Here's her final two reports:

"Dear Ugi,
Today I felt very supported in the selfless space. I called the ego and got light pressure on my head. Not quite as helmet-like as before, but rather individual pressure points. I felt into it, but there is nothing behind it. These points dissolve when I feel them. And then I had a tingling and buzzing in and around my whole body, as if I was dissolving. As if the body was dissolving.
When I think about the I, I think about my body and my appearance at the same time. But this is not the I, because this is somehow changeable.
I think the I exists only as a thought. But what is it that reacts flattered or happy or angry?"

And the final one:

"Dear Ugi,
yesterday it was very quiet inside me, I felt carried, and the noise, which usually prevails in my head, was no longer there. The volume control was probably turned to "quiet". And I had the subtle knowledge that I had unmasked it:
There's no one there inside of me. There is no I. There is no "control center" in me from which everything emanates. It is empty within me.
When I called the 'I' this time, it sounded different in me. No longer meaningful, rather meaningless. It had no effect on my feelings, because I knew that there was nothing there.
A slight, barely perceptible head pressure, perhaps, but even that had no meaning. I never left the selfless room.
I felt very calm and carried all day long. And practiced to perceive myself in the selfless space.
Even today everything feels very light. Unconcerned I watch the newsfeed on FB, which usually takes me quite emotionally. It all feels very wide inside me. Like I said, rather uninvolved in terms of the outer life.
I feel comfortable inside me. The topic, which has been on my mind and emotions for the last year, has retreated into the background. I feel freer and can enjoy life very much.
The tightness in my body is no longer there and in my head it is perhaps still minimal. But that has no relevance either.
Thoughts and feelings just come. They arise as naturally as my heartbeat or breathing or the functions of my organs. They also leave again when I let them.
Many greetings and a happy Sunday,
Birgit"

Before awakening (left) and after awakening (right)

Guidance to Awakening:

https://www.pemakobuddhism.com/34533

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The following text is a diary of a friend of mine, "M", who was scheduled to take Guidance to Awakening. Guidance turned out unnecessary as awakening already took place when she was preparing for it by reading Awake!-ebook (available for free). Upon careful investigation of her diary and close up photos, I verified her awakening. There has been several other similar cases who awakened by reading the book and the materials.

- Kim, 1.2.2016

M's diary

Hello, Kim. I have been keeping a little journal since I started reading “Awake!”, because something unexplainable happened. Would appreciate your view on this matter.

24.01.16

I was laying on the couch reading from your e-book Awake.  As I was reading the first dialogue with ‘VM’, my body felt funny and my heart started racing, as if it was opened up or somehow activated. I stopped reading at page 12. I sat up and looked around the room. I repeated “Me, me, me, me..” several times, but I could not find that little annoyed bossy victimized monkey anywhere. I had to laugh.

I do not feel impatient. Just strange and like nothing could knock me over. I feel steady, like a rock or a tree. Thoughts bubble up and disappear like dew in the morning sun. I do not feel particularly happy or sad, just very neutral. Not in a passive way, but in an alert attentive way. I do not feel the need to prove anything to anyone like I have my whole life. It is like a beginning, not a destination.

There are a lot of vibrations in my head and sometimes the rest of my body. A pressure on the “third eye”, in the forehead. For the past 2 weeks, I have been trying to ground myself more to not get too much anxiety and energy in my head, but now I am grounded without much effort. The energy in my head and body can do its thing. I don`t feel like seeking to get anywhere, but whatever may come, I am curious about it. 

 

Going to bed now. Will see how I feel in the morning.


25.01.16

Getting used to this new perspective. Still feels strange. Things don`t seem to bother me as much. I just deal with it. Still have to see how I react around people/being social.

When emotions and memories pop up, I don't get so invested. I do, however, still have many strong emotions, but there is more space around them and I breathe more easily. In addition, I have noticed my jaw is not chronically tense anymore. Like it`s not “chewing” on any stressful thoughts. So I have less of a headache!

26.01.16
The cat threw up on my carpet. I just cleaned it up without getting involved. I didn`t get angry with him like before, just curious about if he is okay.

It would take me a lifetime to describe this moment. But that is a paradox, because there is no lifetime. I say “Me” several times a day, but the inquiry disappears into nothingness. Nothing to be understood; this is not logical. It`s almost annoying how OK I am.

I still see patterns in my behavior. It comes up like mud from the bottom of a lake, and it flourishes so that I can see it for what it is. It wants me to defend it, but it won`t survive long in the sunlight, because it`s like a troll in the old fairy tales; it turns to stone and breaks. I rest in humbleness and gratitude. Sometimes I have to smile or laugh or cry, even at the smallest of things. I want to thank everybody for being here.

I remember that I have been in this state before, but that anxiety and fear took over then, so it did not last for long. Now it feels like it`s here to stay. Or rather, the fearful self is not here to stay and to control the situation.

 

27.01.16

I spend hours sitting on the couch looking through the room, at my paintings, at the cats, my legs, the lamp, everything. The only thing I "really" need to do is eat. This state of being feels endless and it only intensifies. The questioning mind is going in loops; asks questions, not receiving an answer, gives up, lets it go, asks again. “You have no power here”, I say, and laugh.

I am in great physical pain, but it`s okay. Being chronically ill is strangely okay now. Not having a job or going to school is okay. Not having my family`s support is okay now. Is this true acceptance? It just feels like peace.

Open Heart,

www.openheart.fi

Awakened on their experiences

Awakened on their experiences

All who answered were awakened one year or more before. They all said that awakening has brought a permanent change to their being although there is still momentary attachment to emotional states in their minds. Everyone of them also said that the effect of awakening hasn't worn out. Therefore it is an attainment that is permanent and irreversible.

More information about Guidance to Awakening may be found at the Open Heart-website: http://www.en.openheart.fi/

• What awakening has meant for you? What kind of change has it made in your life?

Answer: It is the most impressive and profound change in my life. There is no longer a need to imagine me being this or that. No need to seek explanations and relief from books, treatments and no need to forcibly alter the ways of thinking in any way. There is no need to fortify self-knowledge or define what I am, what I like and what I don't like. It is enough to be. There is no need to seek anything. There is a natural distance to emotions, thoughts and events that formerly created a chaos in my mind. Being calm has increased in my life and the extremes from the height of blissful happiness to gloom and depression has dropped off.

Answer: Awakening has brought clarity to my life. Meditation is easier. I feel more relaxed. Inner peace has increased. I understand the things happening around me better. Acceptance and tolerance have increased. I am able to notice the happenings around me in more detail as if my ability to be mindful has come better. It feels as if the state of meditation is ”on” all the time.

Answer: Awakening has dropped off the constant and never ending need to search for ”truth”. Awakening has brought more humour, relaxation, patience, courage and also sense of responsibility and compassion towards others.

Answer: I've stopped complaining. Satisfaction has increased. Everything I have in my life is enough and good. If there is some resistance, unpleasant feelings or even anger, the first thing that comes to mind is not that this nasty thing has to disappear of my life. Instead this emotion may be calmly looked at, and seen from where and how it arises and how it ceases. So there is no instant reaction, it can merely be witnessed. It is a great satisfaction that nothing is so serious or personal anymore. If one has lived 30 years feeling guilt and shame, the dropping of that load is an immense relief. Life has become straightforward, natural, even easy. Meeting people has become easier as the inner voice is no longer judging myself or the other person. The other person may have his or her space. A desire to control things has decreased. Acceptance and trust to life and people has increased.

Answer: After awakening, the inner peace and stability are found more easily than before.

Answer: Awakening has given a context for the whole so called spiritual path. In many ways it has brought lightness and clarity to my being. It is easier to experience and accept everything that arises in my experience as there is no longer a personal connection to it. There are still many sensations that make my being feel difficult and personal but they become accepted more easily. Life is what it is. If there is an ”embarrassing” situation, for example, which previously I had felt shameful about, now it doesn't feel so strong and often circumstances like this just make me smile. Old fears and all the thoughts in connection to them do arise but these are also seen as natural ”bubbling” and they don't bring despair. Seen from the outside, I may appear slightly absent but nevertheless I am not, it's just that there is no hurry anymore. In overall I'd say that my actions are more incontinent and creative. Being with people is more direct.

Answer: Awakening was a moment among other moments but a big step towards the right direction on the spiritual path. Through it I have been able to live my life more in a state of truthfulness where the conditioned thoughts don't colorize the direct experience. And this means everything.